Saturday, June 19, 2010

Day 103

I’m sitting in my room. This is my third room since starting this project. It wasn’t supposed to take this long. Almost a third of the year has gone by, and we have nothing to show for it. The enthusiasm has disappeared, but the confidence remains. We are on the final leg of the journey, which somehow parallels my life, as the desperate struggle I am engaged in nears its own conclusion.
I am an unassuming individual at this point, who elicit nor solicits pity or sympathy from friends, family, or strangers. The wide-reaching potential is, simply put, staggering. I could be a great success, or this could be my last stand before being driven into a metaphorical sea and annihilated. Extremes, to be sure, but this is how one should prepare for consequences.
The base of the machine is complete. It is operational, needing only to be gift-wrapped for my superior and our clients. Far from complete, but priorities have shifted recently.
I am exhausted.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Day 97

Most of the work done since March has been scrapped for a while, we’re about a month into the redesign/optimization. I have found myself almost entirely incompetent coming to the actual design part of the website, and have asked Shane Strife to help me out. Hopefully, between the two of us, we can get this site up, running, and profitable very soon. Nolan has completed his side of things, having formed Riot, LLC and procured the necessary paperwork for our operation.

My other job is by no means draining, but I find myself unable to manage the load of that job and this project, as well as my familial obligations. Every day I find myself drained and unmotivated. Recent tragedies have only exacerbated this feeling. Things seem to be on the rise. And I’ve learned a lot about myself and my friends in the process…